Its the moments.

That moment when you're just sitting there, your stomach feels butterflies, your heart feels light as a feather, and your cheeks cant possibly get any more sore. You realize all these things are going on, and soon after you realize the enormous smile strapped across your face. If you're anything like me right away you get a little embarrassed because usually these moments happen in public when in fact nothing is going on besides a moment inside your own thoughts. These feelings do not necessarily happen because of something someone said, or something that you just did. But because in that moment you are happiness. In that moment you are content. In that moment you are loving every second of your life. You are on top of the world and because of that, that smile will not be easily removed.
Those are the moments i live for.
I cant wait for the moments that i'm engulfed in pure bliss. The times where i am so excited to see my mom for the first time in two months that i'm overly excited towards the flight attendants, so much so that i start getting weird looks. The times where the attractive guy from down the road answered my question that i was so nervous to ask, with the exact answer i was hoping for (yup, same guy from last post (; ). The times that my brother and i just look at each other and start uncontrollably laughing, and no one could tell you why. The times where i am sitting in a diner with my dad, brother, my grandpa, who is dying of cancer, my aunt who is addicted to drugs and is in rehab, and everyone is exploding with laughter, and i take a moment to just watch them all be so incredibly happy, no matter what the circumstances were. The times where a lady was selling reindeer candy canes in the Walmart parking lot and was trying to sell them for any sort of money she could gather, and when my friend gives her the only cash any of us had on us, even though it wasn't a lot she looked at us with so much gratefulness, just beaming at us. The times where my family and i buy presents for the less fortunate kids instead of ourselves, and no one is worried about how many presents we, ourselves might not get because of this, but instead of all the smiles the toys will bring to all these kids. The times when the children at my work tell me "i make their lives better". The times that i stand up for what i believe in and prospered every second of the way. The times that i profess my love for God with no shame, and his glory just fills my body immediately after. The times where i am on my favorite place on the earth, the beach, searching for seashells and feeling the waves crash against my legs. The times where i am at the happiest place in the world to me, any amusement park, and im having the time of my life riding every ride till they shut it down. The times where i would sing worship at church and i get chills up and down my body, for i know the words i sing, are words of truth, and its my way to praise God. The times where my friends and i are all in the car and our favorite song comes on, and no matter what kind of day we had, we roll the windows down, let down our hair and scream out the song like its our job, The moments when i walk into work and every child rushes to be the first one to give me a hug, to let me know they love me, and wait gleaming at me until i tell them i love them too. Its time like these that i look forward to, its moments like these that fill my heart with joy. The butterflies and aching cheeks are one of the best combinations i have ever encountered, and i cant wait for the hundreds more to come throughout my life. I cant wait for the awkward moment where im sitting in a crowded room, or walking down the school halls and just start smiling cheek to cheek, people will stare, people will glare, but in that moment it won't even phase me, because in that moment i will be happy.