Fix you

Everyone goes through struggles in their life. Loosing a loved one is probably the toughest one that i have struggled with. Lately thats all i can think about, is the people that i loved, i lost. My moms mom, who i called Mum-mum i lost to cancer a couple years ago, my soccer coach of 5 years i lost to cancer an even shorter time ago. These were by far some of the most tough times i had ever gone through, and more tough from the fact that i refused to let anyone help me get through those times. My grandpa Frank has cancer of the throat, its came back twice now, and he is not even able to do radiation more. He is choosing to quite chemo as well, because he wants to live the life he has left without that extra pain. Long story short it doesnt look good, im not giving up though because i know God does miracles. It still gets me down though, from think 'what if'. The Sandy Hook elementary shooting keeps running through my mind also. I cant even imagine what the parents of these children are going through. Loosing a loved one is hard enough without it being your own 5 year old child. I know God is looking over them and i pray that they know that he is always with them in times of darkness. Times like this in anyones life is difficult, times like this is when you need to turn to your loved ones. Everyone needs a someone. Everyone needs a person they can turn to, a person who can hold them, a person who can assure them it's going to be alright, even though ever being in your body is screaming no. These moments in life where everything goes crashing down bringing your spirit and hope with it, is when you need to learn that you can turn to people. They will carry you when you cant, they will show you love when you dont, and they will bring you up when you're down. The people you love, they will fix you. You just have to learn to let them.